about that IV...

I was only half joking. Think I could get a milkshake IV? Well maybe not an IV because then I wouldn't get the pleasure of enjoying every sip. Maybe one of those hats with the straws that come down, full of chocolate milkshake. I don't know why I crave sweets so bad... blogging about it instead of eating it for now.

updates

So I weigh myself every day just to keep myself accountable. I'm still struggling with sweets. I just crave them SO bad. In general really. But extra, extra bad when pregnant. Like seriously get me a milkshake IV and we'll all be happier. I even sent a text to Aaron the other day, "Sometimes the hardest part of my day is NOT buying a chocolate bar at the checkout aisle." So it goes. Anyway, back to weighing myself... my weight fluctuates daily from 217 - 220. Seriously one day it's 217 and then the next 220. Today was 220. I am generally more careful on 220 days :)  Plus I go to the doctor on Friday and my midwife threatened to yell at me if I gain weight already... she's joking but really I'm a little scared.

I have been really, really good at working out. Like Ashley said in her comment, you really have to train for birth. I have been doing some yoga, lots of walking and swimming and a little lifting. I want to work out every day, excluding Sunday, until this baby comes. It helps that I have a good friend who likes to go to the gym with me. I could probably push myself harder than I do most days, but I'm giving myself credit for at least getting to the gym about 5-6 times a week. And let me tell ya getting 2 kids dressed, and loaded up in the car is a workout in itself.

Today we have a birthday party to go to. I will be strong and resist the urge to eat cupcakes. I also found this recipe for cookie dough cupcakes that I must not make. There's like 6 sticks of butter between the frosting and the cupcakes. Must resist buttery goodness....

Anyone there?

I have a really good reason I haven't updated this blog. And since I'm pretty sure there are only like 4 of you reading I think I can safely put it here, before I put it on my other blog, or facebook or anyone else out there in the internet. But we are expecting baby #3 this Dec! Super excited, and in denial, and just... whoa I'm going to have THREE CHILDREN! It freaks me out.

But my midwife is going to work with me and help me stay on track with my weight during this pregnancy. She wants me to gain about 10lbs. Total. Well at first she said 10-15 and I told her I had already gained 5 lbs since I found out, and she said, okay then 10! On their scale I was 223. But that was fully clothed, in the afternoon. On my home scale, that I have been using for this blog, I am 219. So 3 lbs higher than my lowest since this blog. I am hoping to stay around there for as long as possible. Obviously I'm not really "dieting". But I am trying to eat healthy. I have a really hard time when I'm pregnant. Esp these early weeks when nothing really sounds good at all... except junk. So I'm trying really hard to just think of food as medicine. And eating for nourishment not really enjoyment. I have been going to the gym about 4 times a week. I usually aim for 6, and then if I get 4 that's great.

So now that the cats out of the bag I'll try to update more often.

Finally budged

I've been at death's door with the most horrible cold in the history of the world for almost a week. Seriously it's the worst cold I've had in a looooong time. So I haven't been working out the past few days. But I've been sticking to the diet, drinking lots of water and taking my vitamins.

Weighed myself this morning...

216!

Today for exercise I mopped the floors and put on music and danced while I cleaned the playroom. It wasn't a very hard workout but I did sweat, and it's about all I can handle with this sinus pressure. I'm happy today.

Working out

So we joined the Y. And I found a friend to work out with. I also have my husband supporting me. My SIL and I have a buddy system where we congratulate each other via text for working out. I call my mom every time I work out. I have another friend I email once a week updating on our weight loss efforts. And I have you, my lovely little, sometimes forgotten blog. So looks like I'm in a good position to lose some weight. Right? Monday night I went to a Pilates class. It was canceled. So I spent 30 minutes on the elliptical, and did some ab work. Tuesday I went to a kick boxing class. Today I went to an xbike class. My rear is still yelling at me to never do that again. I'm hoping with time it will get easier. It was intense. Probably the hardest I have worked out in 30 minutes. I loved it though. It was fun. High energy. And fast. I can do hard things for 30 minutes. Except now I don't feel like moving. At all. Good thing sitting still isn't really an option with two little kids. I want to do a yoga class tomorrow. We'll see how that goes.

Oh and I'm STILL 218. I can NOT wait to not see that number anymore. I did eat some sweets yesterday at a baby shower. Nothing crazy. One piece of candy. One little blackberry tart type thing. And lots of snap peas. Not bad. Now what to make for dinner tonight...?

plateau?

I don't know if I can really consider it a plateau since I've cheated a teenie bit every day. I haven't had a perfect day in weeks. And I'm still 218. I've already cheated today and it's 8:50am. But by all I had was a glass of OJ. And a pear. So I'm not beating myself up, but really I want to get back to being hardcore about it because losing 10lbs was fun and I'd really like to do it again, and again, and again. Just not the same 10lbs. Anyway, we filled out an application for the YMCA here and I can't wait to hear back from them. I seriously can't wait. I am going to quit Jazzercise. It was really nice, but the class times aren't that convenient for me and truthfully I don't remember the last time I went to a class. Now, I realize there are always a million excuses, and joining the Y isn't going to magically make me start working out. But I think it's going to help. They have like a thousand classes. Child care. An awesome gym area. A pool.

I am literally fascinating about dropping my kids off at the child care working out for an hour, and then taking a shower!! Without being interrupted. Heaven. That sounds like heaven. We'll see often it happens. Plus Aaron can come with me. That will be fun. I hope this all plays out the way I'm imagining.

So yeah, current weight still 218.

Fat Head

So I watched the Fat Head documentary on Netflix. I recommend everyone watch it. It was pretty entertaining, and just eye opening. It brought up an issue I have been conflicted with since I started this weight loss journey. That weight loss is more than just calories in vs calories burned. I have always thought as much, but it was nice to see some science behind it. It also talked about the government and its play in what we consider "healthy". It was really very interesting. He also showed how eating low carb helps you lose weight.

Which, by the way, I have am really loving. Eating low carb, that is. I am never hungry, I feel like this is something I can stick with long term. During Olivia's birthday I did gain a pound. But I've lost it again, plus another. It's easy to get back on track. I am not following Atkins to a science. I don't really count my carbs, or my ounces of cheese. I mostly just avoid starches. I have been happy with the results

Current weight - 218