My awesome week.

So I called a friend's midwife and I'm in love with her. She told me simply that Kim had no right to talk to me like that. And that gaining 10lbs while pregnant and on vacation is no reason for concern. And she also told me she knows Kim, and that quite frankly she can be a total "b". I felt better immediately. She seems awesome.

This week I have totally rocked it. I'm just sayin. But I went to the gym 3 times. And I sweat my booty off all three times. And I loved it. I did my pelvic rocking exercise that I swear saves my back, takes me all of 2 minutes, but for some reason I haven't been that great at doing it until this week. I've made a huge effort to add lots of raw fruit and veggies to my diet. No matter what else I eat, I add a piece of fruit or some veggies to it. I think this really helped me in my awesome week. I haven't stopped eating carbs all together, but I've cut back and have been filling up on protein.

But my scale is dead again. I think it might be time for a new one. We seem to be going through batteries a little too quickly. So I have no clue what I weigh, but for right now I'm okay with that.

I also just found this website http://www.ourfamilyeats.com/ And I'm going to give their challenge a try. I need to talk to Aaron, but I think he will be on board. It really is appalling what's in those darn fruit snacks and every other snacky thing like that my children love. Seriously juice boxes and fruit snacks are like crack around here, and have to be guarded under lock and key (okay just stop shelf, but still..). For this reason alone, I've debated in my mind to stop buying them... but after reading all this my decision is becoming more firm in my mind.

I know this is silly, but I really don't want to become one of "those people" who don't let their kids eat anything fun. I have a very laid back parenting style as it is, and this just seems not me. But I really can't justify letting my kids eat petroleum. We are really picky about medicine and vaccinations, so why would I think eating stuff that may contain mercury, arsenic, and other known carcinogens is okay? This is also going to be hard because it seems my kids live for ice pops and fruit snacks. And they don't really have behavior problems. Most of the time. I don't think. But we have been good about giving Olivia her Reliv the past few days and she's been acting sweeter and more obedient than normal. I do believe behavior and nutrition are more related than we think.

So we'll give it a go. I'm not sure we'll start this week because Aaron just brought a box of those blasted fruit snacks yesterday and I doubt he'll want to waste them and throw them out or something. But as soon as this box is gone I am vowing to not buy fruit snacks or juice boxes from here on out.

Yeah. I'm still fat. But now I have a new excuse!!

I weighed 234 on my doctors scale at my last midwife appointment. *dies a little inside*

That is officially the highest my weight has ever been. Even at the end of each of my pregnancies.

Have I told you, little blog of mine, that I'm pregnant? With our third baby? Our first son? Yes, I'm really excited too. But depressed at the same time. I was doing pretty well at the beginning with working out and eating fairly healthy. Then we moved to NJ for 5 weeks. Where all motivation and will power went out the window. I still tried not to go overboard. Ya know... only say yes once a day when my grandmother offered me a Klondike bar. Anywhoo - weighed myself every day and I stayed the same the entire 5 weeks I was there. So I thought that was pretty good. Then I went to AZ. Where I promptly went overboard. And ate all the Mexican food I could. And then went back to NJ and NYC and indulged a little here and a little there... adding up to a 12 pound weight gain in 8 weeks.

Which made my midwife flip out on me. Like seriously this woman talked to me the way you would talk to a disobedient child. I never felt so... belittled in my life. I keep playing the conversation over in my head. I really don't like the way she talked to me. But maybe I need someone like this to help me stay on track while I'm pregnant? Tough love? I don't know because I've really been sad since that appointment. But I've also been eating a lot of salad and protein. So... I don't know. Part of me wants to lose 10lbs before my next visit and really show her! Then another part of me wants to eat chocolate cake for the rest of my life and never go back there again.