Working on my after picture.

So I'm hoping that one day these will be before pictures. I hope one day I post this picture aside another picture of me where this shirt is lose and flowy.  And my arms will have definition. And maybe I won't have a pile of laundry on my bathroom floor ;)

I officially registered for my first half marathon!! I'm doing the Tinkerbell race at Disneyland in May. I'm working out really hard, but the area I really need to step it up is my eating. I literally think about food all day long. When I realize it's meal time I am so happy. Today I ran my heart out... only to come home and eat an ice cream sandwich!! I ate 3 corn muffins with dinner! What is wrong with me... trying to get to the source of this. I literally go into like a trance and lie to myself. I say things like, Well just one more bite won't hurt. Completely disregarding the last 20 bites. Or I'll think, I haven't had much to eat today, I better eat another granola bar, besides I really need the fiber! That's another problem. I really don't buy junk food. I do buy ingredients to make junk food... like I literally can't go a week without baking chocolate chip cookies. And if they're homemade, then the calories don't count right?? I eat almost all "real" food. However, I eat a lot of it! I know that no matter how much I lift, or how much I run, it won't be enough to make a big difference unless I control my eating. So each day I try. And slowly but surely I'm getting there. I weigh in on Friday so we'll see where I'm at. I've been right around 220 for weeeeks now.

My 30th birthday is 7.5 weeks away. I would LOVE if I could lose 5 lbs my first week, then even just 1 lb a week until my birthday. To be below 210 would feel like such a huge accomplishment! And I think it is realistic. Okay in the next 7.5 weeks I will lose 11 lbs. I will do this by counting and tracking EVERY BITE I eat. I will do this by continuing to run 4x a week, and lift weights 3x a week. And I'm secretly wishing that it will be more than 11 lbs, if I actually stick to this, but I will be realistic. I am still nursing an infant and my body really likes to hold on to weight while nursing.

June Goals

It's the first day of the month and wonderful time for setting some goals.

My one goal?

Run/Walk 50 miles this month. That's 1 2/3 miles every day.  If I run every other day that's almost 3 miles a day. I'm not sure how I'm going to break it up yet. But 50 miles logged by July.

We have a week at SeaWorld and Legoland coming up so that will probably help!

I also have a knee injury and so I can't run right now :(   But I'm going to walk and elliptical it up.

Weigh-in tomorrow! Don't have high hopes for this week though. I really didn't track well and kind of indulged a few too many times. We'll see.

Had another kid and I'm back at this weight loss...

230 again...

224.6

I started running again, and also doing pilates at the Y. I'm counting points, Weight Watchers Style, and staying accountable with my friend Laura, and hopefully going to start using this blog again.

Non Scale Victory -- I ran 3 miles yesterday. And then today I did my entire pilates class without modifications. This is maybe my 4th or 5th week of it, and I've always had to do the modified plank, or not hold it the entire time. This time I was able to do a real plank and hold it the whole time just like the skinny minnies in that class!

My goals are to keep this up. I will be turning 30 in 6 months! I really want to accomplish my original goal of being in better shape by the time I turn 30 than I was when I turned 20.  I am sure if I just keep doing what I'm doing I'll accomplish that. I don't think I could have run 3 miles when I was 20. I'm definitely heavier, but I'm defining my fitness based on my weight alone.

I weigh-in each Monday, so hopefully I'll update this blog with my weights each week. But I'll also keep track of the "nsv"s. I'd like to get my 5k time much faster, and I also want to run a half marathon the day after my birthday.