Working on my after picture.

So I'm hoping that one day these will be before pictures. I hope one day I post this picture aside another picture of me where this shirt is lose and flowy.  And my arms will have definition. And maybe I won't have a pile of laundry on my bathroom floor ;)

I officially registered for my first half marathon!! I'm doing the Tinkerbell race at Disneyland in May. I'm working out really hard, but the area I really need to step it up is my eating. I literally think about food all day long. When I realize it's meal time I am so happy. Today I ran my heart out... only to come home and eat an ice cream sandwich!! I ate 3 corn muffins with dinner! What is wrong with me... trying to get to the source of this. I literally go into like a trance and lie to myself. I say things like, Well just one more bite won't hurt. Completely disregarding the last 20 bites. Or I'll think, I haven't had much to eat today, I better eat another granola bar, besides I really need the fiber! That's another problem. I really don't buy junk food. I do buy ingredients to make junk food... like I literally can't go a week without baking chocolate chip cookies. And if they're homemade, then the calories don't count right?? I eat almost all "real" food. However, I eat a lot of it! I know that no matter how much I lift, or how much I run, it won't be enough to make a big difference unless I control my eating. So each day I try. And slowly but surely I'm getting there. I weigh in on Friday so we'll see where I'm at. I've been right around 220 for weeeeks now.

My 30th birthday is 7.5 weeks away. I would LOVE if I could lose 5 lbs my first week, then even just 1 lb a week until my birthday. To be below 210 would feel like such a huge accomplishment! And I think it is realistic. Okay in the next 7.5 weeks I will lose 11 lbs. I will do this by counting and tracking EVERY BITE I eat. I will do this by continuing to run 4x a week, and lift weights 3x a week. And I'm secretly wishing that it will be more than 11 lbs, if I actually stick to this, but I will be realistic. I am still nursing an infant and my body really likes to hold on to weight while nursing.