about that IV...

I was only half joking. Think I could get a milkshake IV? Well maybe not an IV because then I wouldn't get the pleasure of enjoying every sip. Maybe one of those hats with the straws that come down, full of chocolate milkshake. I don't know why I crave sweets so bad... blogging about it instead of eating it for now.

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So I weigh myself every day just to keep myself accountable. I'm still struggling with sweets. I just crave them SO bad. In general really. But extra, extra bad when pregnant. Like seriously get me a milkshake IV and we'll all be happier. I even sent a text to Aaron the other day, "Sometimes the hardest part of my day is NOT buying a chocolate bar at the checkout aisle." So it goes. Anyway, back to weighing myself... my weight fluctuates daily from 217 - 220. Seriously one day it's 217 and then the next 220. Today was 220. I am generally more careful on 220 days :)  Plus I go to the doctor on Friday and my midwife threatened to yell at me if I gain weight already... she's joking but really I'm a little scared.

I have been really, really good at working out. Like Ashley said in her comment, you really have to train for birth. I have been doing some yoga, lots of walking and swimming and a little lifting. I want to work out every day, excluding Sunday, until this baby comes. It helps that I have a good friend who likes to go to the gym with me. I could probably push myself harder than I do most days, but I'm giving myself credit for at least getting to the gym about 5-6 times a week. And let me tell ya getting 2 kids dressed, and loaded up in the car is a workout in itself.

Today we have a birthday party to go to. I will be strong and resist the urge to eat cupcakes. I also found this recipe for cookie dough cupcakes that I must not make. There's like 6 sticks of butter between the frosting and the cupcakes. Must resist buttery goodness....

Anyone there?

I have a really good reason I haven't updated this blog. And since I'm pretty sure there are only like 4 of you reading I think I can safely put it here, before I put it on my other blog, or facebook or anyone else out there in the internet. But we are expecting baby #3 this Dec! Super excited, and in denial, and just... whoa I'm going to have THREE CHILDREN! It freaks me out.

But my midwife is going to work with me and help me stay on track with my weight during this pregnancy. She wants me to gain about 10lbs. Total. Well at first she said 10-15 and I told her I had already gained 5 lbs since I found out, and she said, okay then 10! On their scale I was 223. But that was fully clothed, in the afternoon. On my home scale, that I have been using for this blog, I am 219. So 3 lbs higher than my lowest since this blog. I am hoping to stay around there for as long as possible. Obviously I'm not really "dieting". But I am trying to eat healthy. I have a really hard time when I'm pregnant. Esp these early weeks when nothing really sounds good at all... except junk. So I'm trying really hard to just think of food as medicine. And eating for nourishment not really enjoyment. I have been going to the gym about 4 times a week. I usually aim for 6, and then if I get 4 that's great.

So now that the cats out of the bag I'll try to update more often.